"The Past is history, the Future a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the Present."

I find it appropriate that the title of the first post in my reactivation of this blog is a quote from Kung Fu Panda.  It just goes to show that even in those things that are taken for granted as being childish or simply for amusement's sake, there can be found something of value. This also leads into the meaning of the new name for my blog. "Myriad Subtleties" is a phrase from Dunbar's poem We Wear the Mask, and it is used to describe the hinted at signs of a person's true being that they are unwilling or afraid to show to the outside world. Considering that a blog is often simply an online journal I thought the name fitting since it is sometimes easier to express ourselves in writing than in everyday life.
I began this blog a very long time ago when I was in High School and have not visited it in 3 years. Looking back I have to say I hardly recognized myself as I am sure is common in similar circumstances. However, I also suddenly felt the want to start this blog again so as to rectify the image of myself that was still being portrayed onto the internet, and portray the me that has grown up in more ways than I thought possible in just three years. So, with a new name and a new theme I am attempting this reactivation with the hope that I can keep it up and better express my current self. Wish me luck!!!

Summer post 1

SUMMER!!!!!!! wooooot!

well has been perty good so far. at least now its sunny. and its so nice out though it is a little hot. but good swimming weather. omj i love summer.

my first week of vacation was wonderful i was totally free to do whatever. i read an entire book (princess ben), i read two manga series, started my anime series, wrote some reviews, wrote some of my book. all my hobbies at once!!! heaven!! also i finally got a firm schedule for work. glee! loves it. i did the math and i will have enough money for my europe trip by december! yes! so worth all the dishes and coming home smelling of coffee grounds.

my second week i started my community college intensive acting class. a four week course consisting of 5 six hour days of 4 classes: audition technique, scene study, ensemble work, and playwriting. honestly i had no idea what i was getting myself into but its turning out to be a lot of fun. this is my last week and though i am really ready for it to be over. (i mean its six hours everyday and i always have homework) i can say im really glad i did it. its a great experience and ive never really had the chance to meet with so many artistic people. it was awesome! (i dont have any artistic friends and my family is pretty practical. so it was really nice to know im not a weirdo and that im not completely nuts) though one of my teachers can be a little out there. well all of them have some interesting moments. i have to really stick firm to my faith in this place because there all about "letting go" and "being organic" to "follow your impulses". i mean i understand what they're trying to say but i still have to be careful with some things. i admit i cried in class because it got just a little to edgy and embarrassing. i mean that teacher is a little over bearing at times. i dont like it that much but i love love ensemble work. especially the exercises we do. i love this thing called phrase by phrase. oh my gosh its so liberating. you can just let yourself go and.....oh my gee. its feels so awesome. its like meditation without the worry of calling on demonic spirits. i loves it. i didnt expect there to be playwriting but i really like that it was there. when my teacher found out i was a writer the first day she did a small interrogation and when i told her how id been doing it for two years and wrote almost everyday (almost) she was really impressed. i was really nervous about writing plays since im so used to prose but i got rave reviews. i get to direct my short comedic play for my final! woot! glad somebody likes my stuff. my only thought is that i thought my plays werent that good and that my novel writing was good. so if they thought my plays were good then.......heehee. happy!

like i said though i loved my class im ready to get back to my summer. my virginia friend might be coming out to visit, i gots to do stuff with the girls, and im going to vermont at the end of september!

oh my gosh so much fun stuff to do. i love summer!!!!

ya say im crazy. i got your crazy.

yes i just quoted britney spears. i know. tis bad.
i havent bloged since march. how terrible. i must get back on this crazy train once school ends. but ive been busy with work and school and actually dealing with the pain of having my computer sick with a virus. :(
that was quite bad. we had to get everything wiped away and reinstall everything which was a very aggravaging process....but i complained too much then and am quite tired so i wont go into detail.
i finished the first draft of the first book of my series!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooooot!!
im super excited. i also finished three background stories. its something new i added. i call them dream chapters where you get a look into the pasts of the characters. its fun. now to just find time to get back to writing. ive actually been using my free period at school to write notes to myself. im that desperate.
i really need to step up my writing. college is coming soon and i need to get my books series under way and i want to publish an essay so ive been looking for contests. it looks good on applications.
speaking of which ive signed up for the SAT and decided im gonna apply anyway to see how much money the universities will give me. otherwise i will be going to CC for two years. fun.
ive also decided to wait on taking classes this summer and am only gonna take an acting course. i miss theater so bad!!!!!
im so done with school. we only have a few days left. GLEE! i cant wait for senior year though.
work is fun at times and earning money is cool but its kinda annoying as well. and tiring.
oh btw. PROM IS TOMORROW!!!!!!! wooot!!!! we so excited. :D
....i think thats it.
well bye for now. wish me luck with life.

job and life and ugh and yay

the big news. i got a job! yay! at a very tasty coffee shop. now to get through all the technicalities so i can actually start earning money. yay! so happy.
the down news. i am so done with math. i just cant stand to think about it anymore. it feels like this should be my last year of school when really ive got all next year to go. groan.
i went to a college reception for U of portland. that was fun. but i still want to visit both that and U of seattle. still gonna do the TAG system even more so now that i have a job. oh and i still dont know what else i wanna do. gonna major in english most likely but what else? bleh. at least i dont have to worry too much about the SAT just yet. but i would like to get it over with. plus im gonna need it if i wanna get my applications in earlier. but then again i cant send any until im in college since there's a whole nother process to apply as a transfer student. at least its easier to get in that way i think.
trying oh so hard to write. once again math is holding me back from my literary happiness. i havent read a book in like 3 months! ACK! cry. maybe thats another reason why i hate it so much.
and they're coming to take me away haha they're coming to take me away hoho heehee haha to the funny farm where life is beautiful all the time
sigh.
oh btw. HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!!!! here's my fav drinking song in honor of it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=luT-p4oNYNU&feature=PlayList&p=343E4F5D8EA5B6DE&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=16

Stuff Stuff Stuff and Fluff

hi!
im turning into a once a month blogger i think. hm. makes sense. not much exciting things happening. valentines day is coming. meh. nothing big for me. oh for the days when God tells me who it is i will love. actually im very glad i have not dated yet. especially in middle school. i thought thats what i wanted but im so glad i didnt. im quite happy to wait for God's direction. besides i have to focus on writing and figuring out what i really want to do.
i went to college night at school and learned quite a few things. im going to do the TAG system. where you take as many college classes in hs as you can then go to a community college so i can enter a university or something as a junior. that way i will minimize my college time. plus its cheaper. sounds good to me.
i know i want to be a writer, to publish my novel series along with a few other things. but i dont think that will be my main career. publishing isnt much of an income in my opinion. plus if my life was only sitting at home and writing i dont think that would make me very happy. i mean i love writing but that not all i want to do. so i have to figure that out.
i will continue acting as a hobby and take a class in college (maybe make it a minor) but i dont think thats the path for me though i enjoy it a whole whole lot. maybe ill try a tv show or a movie. i cant sing well enough to be on broadway unfortunately. but im okay with that i think.
im really good at party planning and baking. im gonna take a catering class so we'll see if i like that. also ill take a class in computers. i love video and picture editing. dont know if its a career option though.
geez im so used to knowing who i am. ive always known who i am and what i wanted. this is not very fun being unsure. guess its time to pray. show me the way Lord.
im trying to drive a lot more so i can perhaps take my test in march like im supposed to. we'll see how it goes.
school is ultra boring right now. i seem to keep falling asleep. thats not good. i couldnt get into CSF this semester cause i was one point short. but i still got the silver honor roll. i guess thats good. but i feel like im being a lazy ass. ugh. i dont know what im doing lately. so indecisive.
im kinda dreading senior year. kinda sad. i need something happy .
i got allergy tested since im fed up with having bad acne and am trying to finally pinpoint its cause once and for all. im getting treated for some of my allergies but its a very long process of not being able to eat stuff. it feels like im back to being a little kid. except henry's and jimbo's has better food now. compared to the stuff i ate as a kid this stuff is pretty good. health foods improved. but it still sucks when i cant eat what my friends are eating. sigh.
well that all i have to say. i have to have some of the lengthiest nothing rant posts ever. oh well. noone reads this thing anyway. its more like my diary than anything else. oh well.

happy new years and such...

hope you alls had a good one as well as a good christmas. i had a good christmas but not such a good new years.
on new years eve my parents went up to the rose parade to help with the float crew for the float made by the city my dad works for. that left me and my brother, who decided to go to a 10:30 showing of the spirit, which her thoroughly enjoyed. so i was left alone with only the dogs and an anime. it was pretty okay though i do admit i was terribly lonely and a bit scared. the anime distracted me until about midnight then my neighborhood started its celebration with the noise of illegal fireworks and gunshots. i found my stupider dog in the living room. he has this thing about loud noises so i stayed there with him for a while. it took a bit of convincing to get him back in my parents bedroom but i just brought the laptop with me and watched more anime while he settled down. when my bro finally got home my dog was happy again. i guess im not enough of an Alpha to kepp him company. oh well i was so frazzles and upset i left the dogs to him and went to bed. the next day i was left to myself as well since my bro went out to do erands. well at least i wasnt scared this time. i dabbled on the computer and finished the anime from the night before. fun day.

christmas was better. i got books! a complete collection of Edgar Allan Poe, Jane Austen 7 novels collection, the inheritance box set, howl's moving castle, and through a gift card and exchange i was finally able to repurchase Inkheart and get Inkdeath.
i had to rearrange my bookcase. twas fun. hee hee.
i also was given luggage for my europe trip. its so cool!
for the rest of my vacation i went shopping, read, wrote, went to horton plaza in san diego, and played the game i got for christamas: kingdom hearts re:chain of memories. tis allot of fun.
um what else. i attempted to get together with the butterflu but that plan fell out, twice. we needs to start filming for our shows.
i didnt really get to go to b&n though unfortunately. i did get to see marley and me but i really wanted to see benjamin button and 7 pounds. didnt though.
i need to start applying for jobs again now that the holidays are over. hopefully ill find one.
its still quite cold for a californian right now. my friend who lives a bit norther had to scrape ice of the windshield with a credit card for the second time this winter. thats huge!

i think thats a bout it. i finally wrote three pages in a row last night. yay! ive been so distracted when i sit down to wright. perhaps i like thinking about it more than writing about it.

The time has come the walrus said.....

ive been gone for so so long. sigh. school is such a bother. at least its raining now. yay! well what have i been up to? im trying ever so hard to keep writing though its getting hard to focus lately. uh oh. i cant seem to manage my many hobbies as always so that i cant do anything i want to. again. sigh.
well i finally saw sweeney todd. i love anything johnny deppXtim burton. though i have to say its not as good as the play. after listening to the play soundtrack and reading about it on wiki the movie just cant compare. sorry johnny. but i did love your singing!
the high school section of our school is having a contest of who can decorate their classroom the most festive for christmas! our room is so gonna win. i spent the whole day stapling light to the wall about 4 ft above my head. dizzying.
i still cant wait until europe. we are definately going now! eeeee!
what else?
i have been desperately searching for a job but i cannot seem to find one. theres only one place owned by a friend of ours but its too far.
i miss my voice lessons. i had to quit for my play a while ago and now money is really tight so i dont dare ask to go back. plus europe....
10 days till christmas!!!!!!!!
also, i finally saw twilight!!!!
i was surprised to find i actually liked it. of course out of the ten people in the theater i could tell only about three other people had read the book. how do i know? because they were the only others laughing hysterically at the same parts i was. also they whooped when jacob came on with their encouragement i COULD NOT stop myself from letting out one small squeal. ugh. im so mad at myself. it was also allot of fun because i went two of my good friends who hadnt read the books and i was able to keep whispering notes to them.they both liked it and want to read the books now! yay! though there are details that kinda annoy me (im extremely picky when it comes to adaptations) i was again surprised to see i didnt mind that much. also i think that the actors, though they dont look quite right, did an honestly good job. so there is my shockingly positive opinion. yipee!
okay i think thats it. hopefully ill come back more quickly this time.