"The Past is history, the Future a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the Present."

I find it appropriate that the title of the first post in my reactivation of this blog is a quote from Kung Fu Panda.  It just goes to show that even in those things that are taken for granted as being childish or simply for amusement's sake, there can be found something of value. This also leads into the meaning of the new name for my blog. "Myriad Subtleties" is a phrase from Dunbar's poem We Wear the Mask, and it is used to describe the hinted at signs of a person's true being that they are unwilling or afraid to show to the outside world. Considering that a blog is often simply an online journal I thought the name fitting since it is sometimes easier to express ourselves in writing than in everyday life.
I began this blog a very long time ago when I was in High School and have not visited it in 3 years. Looking back I have to say I hardly recognized myself as I am sure is common in similar circumstances. However, I also suddenly felt the want to start this blog again so as to rectify the image of myself that was still being portrayed onto the internet, and portray the me that has grown up in more ways than I thought possible in just three years. So, with a new name and a new theme I am attempting this reactivation with the hope that I can keep it up and better express my current self. Wish me luck!!!

Summer post 1

SUMMER!!!!!!! wooooot!

well has been perty good so far. at least now its sunny. and its so nice out though it is a little hot. but good swimming weather. omj i love summer.

my first week of vacation was wonderful i was totally free to do whatever. i read an entire book (princess ben), i read two manga series, started my anime series, wrote some reviews, wrote some of my book. all my hobbies at once!!! heaven!! also i finally got a firm schedule for work. glee! loves it. i did the math and i will have enough money for my europe trip by december! yes! so worth all the dishes and coming home smelling of coffee grounds.

my second week i started my community college intensive acting class. a four week course consisting of 5 six hour days of 4 classes: audition technique, scene study, ensemble work, and playwriting. honestly i had no idea what i was getting myself into but its turning out to be a lot of fun. this is my last week and though i am really ready for it to be over. (i mean its six hours everyday and i always have homework) i can say im really glad i did it. its a great experience and ive never really had the chance to meet with so many artistic people. it was awesome! (i dont have any artistic friends and my family is pretty practical. so it was really nice to know im not a weirdo and that im not completely nuts) though one of my teachers can be a little out there. well all of them have some interesting moments. i have to really stick firm to my faith in this place because there all about "letting go" and "being organic" to "follow your impulses". i mean i understand what they're trying to say but i still have to be careful with some things. i admit i cried in class because it got just a little to edgy and embarrassing. i mean that teacher is a little over bearing at times. i dont like it that much but i love love ensemble work. especially the exercises we do. i love this thing called phrase by phrase. oh my gosh its so liberating. you can just let yourself go and.....oh my gee. its feels so awesome. its like meditation without the worry of calling on demonic spirits. i loves it. i didnt expect there to be playwriting but i really like that it was there. when my teacher found out i was a writer the first day she did a small interrogation and when i told her how id been doing it for two years and wrote almost everyday (almost) she was really impressed. i was really nervous about writing plays since im so used to prose but i got rave reviews. i get to direct my short comedic play for my final! woot! glad somebody likes my stuff. my only thought is that i thought my plays werent that good and that my novel writing was good. so if they thought my plays were good then.......heehee. happy!

like i said though i loved my class im ready to get back to my summer. my virginia friend might be coming out to visit, i gots to do stuff with the girls, and im going to vermont at the end of september!

oh my gosh so much fun stuff to do. i love summer!!!!

ya say im crazy. i got your crazy.

yes i just quoted britney spears. i know. tis bad.
i havent bloged since march. how terrible. i must get back on this crazy train once school ends. but ive been busy with work and school and actually dealing with the pain of having my computer sick with a virus. :(
that was quite bad. we had to get everything wiped away and reinstall everything which was a very aggravaging process....but i complained too much then and am quite tired so i wont go into detail.
i finished the first draft of the first book of my series!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooooot!!
im super excited. i also finished three background stories. its something new i added. i call them dream chapters where you get a look into the pasts of the characters. its fun. now to just find time to get back to writing. ive actually been using my free period at school to write notes to myself. im that desperate.
i really need to step up my writing. college is coming soon and i need to get my books series under way and i want to publish an essay so ive been looking for contests. it looks good on applications.
speaking of which ive signed up for the SAT and decided im gonna apply anyway to see how much money the universities will give me. otherwise i will be going to CC for two years. fun.
ive also decided to wait on taking classes this summer and am only gonna take an acting course. i miss theater so bad!!!!!
im so done with school. we only have a few days left. GLEE! i cant wait for senior year though.
work is fun at times and earning money is cool but its kinda annoying as well. and tiring.
oh btw. PROM IS TOMORROW!!!!!!! wooot!!!! we so excited. :D
....i think thats it.
well bye for now. wish me luck with life.

job and life and ugh and yay

the big news. i got a job! yay! at a very tasty coffee shop. now to get through all the technicalities so i can actually start earning money. yay! so happy.
the down news. i am so done with math. i just cant stand to think about it anymore. it feels like this should be my last year of school when really ive got all next year to go. groan.
i went to a college reception for U of portland. that was fun. but i still want to visit both that and U of seattle. still gonna do the TAG system even more so now that i have a job. oh and i still dont know what else i wanna do. gonna major in english most likely but what else? bleh. at least i dont have to worry too much about the SAT just yet. but i would like to get it over with. plus im gonna need it if i wanna get my applications in earlier. but then again i cant send any until im in college since there's a whole nother process to apply as a transfer student. at least its easier to get in that way i think.
trying oh so hard to write. once again math is holding me back from my literary happiness. i havent read a book in like 3 months! ACK! cry. maybe thats another reason why i hate it so much.
and they're coming to take me away haha they're coming to take me away hoho heehee haha to the funny farm where life is beautiful all the time
sigh.
oh btw. HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!!!! here's my fav drinking song in honor of it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=luT-p4oNYNU&feature=PlayList&p=343E4F5D8EA5B6DE&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=16

Stuff Stuff Stuff and Fluff

hi!
im turning into a once a month blogger i think. hm. makes sense. not much exciting things happening. valentines day is coming. meh. nothing big for me. oh for the days when God tells me who it is i will love. actually im very glad i have not dated yet. especially in middle school. i thought thats what i wanted but im so glad i didnt. im quite happy to wait for God's direction. besides i have to focus on writing and figuring out what i really want to do.
i went to college night at school and learned quite a few things. im going to do the TAG system. where you take as many college classes in hs as you can then go to a community college so i can enter a university or something as a junior. that way i will minimize my college time. plus its cheaper. sounds good to me.
i know i want to be a writer, to publish my novel series along with a few other things. but i dont think that will be my main career. publishing isnt much of an income in my opinion. plus if my life was only sitting at home and writing i dont think that would make me very happy. i mean i love writing but that not all i want to do. so i have to figure that out.
i will continue acting as a hobby and take a class in college (maybe make it a minor) but i dont think thats the path for me though i enjoy it a whole whole lot. maybe ill try a tv show or a movie. i cant sing well enough to be on broadway unfortunately. but im okay with that i think.
im really good at party planning and baking. im gonna take a catering class so we'll see if i like that. also ill take a class in computers. i love video and picture editing. dont know if its a career option though.
geez im so used to knowing who i am. ive always known who i am and what i wanted. this is not very fun being unsure. guess its time to pray. show me the way Lord.
im trying to drive a lot more so i can perhaps take my test in march like im supposed to. we'll see how it goes.
school is ultra boring right now. i seem to keep falling asleep. thats not good. i couldnt get into CSF this semester cause i was one point short. but i still got the silver honor roll. i guess thats good. but i feel like im being a lazy ass. ugh. i dont know what im doing lately. so indecisive.
im kinda dreading senior year. kinda sad. i need something happy .
i got allergy tested since im fed up with having bad acne and am trying to finally pinpoint its cause once and for all. im getting treated for some of my allergies but its a very long process of not being able to eat stuff. it feels like im back to being a little kid. except henry's and jimbo's has better food now. compared to the stuff i ate as a kid this stuff is pretty good. health foods improved. but it still sucks when i cant eat what my friends are eating. sigh.
well that all i have to say. i have to have some of the lengthiest nothing rant posts ever. oh well. noone reads this thing anyway. its more like my diary than anything else. oh well.

happy new years and such...

hope you alls had a good one as well as a good christmas. i had a good christmas but not such a good new years.
on new years eve my parents went up to the rose parade to help with the float crew for the float made by the city my dad works for. that left me and my brother, who decided to go to a 10:30 showing of the spirit, which her thoroughly enjoyed. so i was left alone with only the dogs and an anime. it was pretty okay though i do admit i was terribly lonely and a bit scared. the anime distracted me until about midnight then my neighborhood started its celebration with the noise of illegal fireworks and gunshots. i found my stupider dog in the living room. he has this thing about loud noises so i stayed there with him for a while. it took a bit of convincing to get him back in my parents bedroom but i just brought the laptop with me and watched more anime while he settled down. when my bro finally got home my dog was happy again. i guess im not enough of an Alpha to kepp him company. oh well i was so frazzles and upset i left the dogs to him and went to bed. the next day i was left to myself as well since my bro went out to do erands. well at least i wasnt scared this time. i dabbled on the computer and finished the anime from the night before. fun day.

christmas was better. i got books! a complete collection of Edgar Allan Poe, Jane Austen 7 novels collection, the inheritance box set, howl's moving castle, and through a gift card and exchange i was finally able to repurchase Inkheart and get Inkdeath.
i had to rearrange my bookcase. twas fun. hee hee.
i also was given luggage for my europe trip. its so cool!
for the rest of my vacation i went shopping, read, wrote, went to horton plaza in san diego, and played the game i got for christamas: kingdom hearts re:chain of memories. tis allot of fun.
um what else. i attempted to get together with the butterflu but that plan fell out, twice. we needs to start filming for our shows.
i didnt really get to go to b&n though unfortunately. i did get to see marley and me but i really wanted to see benjamin button and 7 pounds. didnt though.
i need to start applying for jobs again now that the holidays are over. hopefully ill find one.
its still quite cold for a californian right now. my friend who lives a bit norther had to scrape ice of the windshield with a credit card for the second time this winter. thats huge!

i think thats a bout it. i finally wrote three pages in a row last night. yay! ive been so distracted when i sit down to wright. perhaps i like thinking about it more than writing about it.

The time has come the walrus said.....

ive been gone for so so long. sigh. school is such a bother. at least its raining now. yay! well what have i been up to? im trying ever so hard to keep writing though its getting hard to focus lately. uh oh. i cant seem to manage my many hobbies as always so that i cant do anything i want to. again. sigh.
well i finally saw sweeney todd. i love anything johnny deppXtim burton. though i have to say its not as good as the play. after listening to the play soundtrack and reading about it on wiki the movie just cant compare. sorry johnny. but i did love your singing!
the high school section of our school is having a contest of who can decorate their classroom the most festive for christmas! our room is so gonna win. i spent the whole day stapling light to the wall about 4 ft above my head. dizzying.
i still cant wait until europe. we are definately going now! eeeee!
what else?
i have been desperately searching for a job but i cannot seem to find one. theres only one place owned by a friend of ours but its too far.
i miss my voice lessons. i had to quit for my play a while ago and now money is really tight so i dont dare ask to go back. plus europe....
10 days till christmas!!!!!!!!
also, i finally saw twilight!!!!
i was surprised to find i actually liked it. of course out of the ten people in the theater i could tell only about three other people had read the book. how do i know? because they were the only others laughing hysterically at the same parts i was. also they whooped when jacob came on with their encouragement i COULD NOT stop myself from letting out one small squeal. ugh. im so mad at myself. it was also allot of fun because i went two of my good friends who hadnt read the books and i was able to keep whispering notes to them.they both liked it and want to read the books now! yay! though there are details that kinda annoy me (im extremely picky when it comes to adaptations) i was again surprised to see i didnt mind that much. also i think that the actors, though they dont look quite right, did an honestly good job. so there is my shockingly positive opinion. yipee!
okay i think thats it. hopefully ill come back more quickly this time.

Happy B-day to Me

well actually its a little late like three days late. oh well. im 17! yay. not.

im officially finished with the little mermaid. it was allot of fun and my friends who saw it can't shutup about it. which is a good thing. im gonna miss that cast so much. is sad.

im going job hunting this weekend because i seriously need to start making money for my trip to europe this summer. ive got about 4 places in mind. we'll see what happens. wish me luck.

umm...happy halloween! really late. me and my friends dressed up as gypsies this year. they insisted on walking around the neighborhood though i consider us to be too old but hey what was i gonna do? just stay behind? so we went for an hour only. we watched four scary movies. children of the corn, beetlejuice, the grudge, and sleepy hollow. the first i found stupid and we were all actually making fun of it. the second was just odd. the grudge was actually a bit creepy but then again have i mentioned i just dont get scared. my friends were hiding there faces and im just watching the movie with a blank expression. sigh. its sad really. im too desensitized. the last movie is one of my alltime favorites. hello! johnny depp and time burton! whats not to love?!

im finally free to do some relaxing besides school work and it feels good. not to mention the frigid weather we're having makes my mood even better. im just a very happy person at the moment and it makes me glad.

Desert Island Meme

Tagged by Bookbutterfly

1. List the 10 books/collected works/series that you would bring on a desert island.
2. (Optional) Say why you would bring them.
3. Link to the person who linked to you.
4. Tag 6 people to also do the meme.
5. Leave a comment to let those people know.

1. my classic collection (tom sawyer, huck finn, a little princess, the secret garden, heidi, lotr, hobbit)-okay thats kinda out there but i group them because theyre the solid books that make me feel secure. why, i have no idea.

2. the merlin books by TA Barron-well its a series and two trilogys but i see them as all one series because theyre chronological. i really really love these books.

3. Castaways of the flying Dutchman-im in a passionate love with these 3 books. again i dont know why. plus id want these if i was stuck on an island.

4. pendragon series-good for a laugh and dang that kids smart. might give me an idea on how to get off the island.

5. twilight series-they beautiful.

6. inkheart series-dream of escape into the inkworld.

7. Arms of love and surrender by carmen marcoux-keep me strong in faith.

8. keys to the kingdom series

9. my side of the mountain and on the far side of the mountain

10. beatrix potter collection.

i tag whoever. im so out of the loop i dont know where the loop is located anymore.

Long time no seeeeeeeeeeee!

hokay. for one, school is going better. i was able to drop physics (yes!) so i only have to take chemistry next year while i get to stay in pre-cal this year so i dont have a math next year. perfecto. pre-cal is also going easier than before. so all in all its going just.....school. meh.

the little mermaid opens next wednesday! eeek! it goes more to the book than the movie and of course our director likes to throw things in for fun (he writes the scripts) so its really fun. i play the prince's old nanny and i have to cry pitifully on stage and embarass hime about stuff he did as a child. (its going to be hard not to laugh while im crying)
i did audition for little women but i dont think ill get in. i felt kinda young (im barely old enough) and plus i have a phobia of auditions where i start to hyperventalate. (even though this was like my 10th one) my heart rate was lower this time but my singing STILL was pretty below my best. it sucks. he'll never know how i can actually sing. sigh.

im going to europe. ive got to get a job though and my christmas and birthday are going to be very small. oh well. im going to freakin' europe! so fun. i applied to both Bath and Body works as well as See's candy o top of auditioning for little woman so we'll see if i get any bites. wish me luck.

im so busy. rehersals all this and next week until we open. im tired already. ive got to learn the waltz and me and my partner are pretty good but hes really tall so he takes to big of steps. well must go sleep.

School and its suckage

well ive finally started my junior year of high school and i both hate and like it. we have a new campus with actual schoolish features which we have never had before so thats positively awsome. my classes are mostly perty cool except for physics and pre-calc which are both taught by the same teacher. let me just say this. i totally suck at algebra and pre-calc. and to think i was one of the head of my class at math in grade school. geometry was fun to. i am just not oriented for algebraic and calculus type thinking. it just doesnt click. tis annoying. so im gonna have to try to survive that. pre-calc i could be kicked out of so i now hope i make it so i dont have to take a math senior year.

driving is going okay. i was made to drive my mom's truck which i really hate. the stearing is really loose and you have to push really hard on the brake to make it work. i like little cars better.

i got into the play i auditioned for. yay! though my audition was perty bad if you ask me. my voice was shaking because my pulse was really fast when i sang my song. mostly because auditions just naturally make me nervous even though ive done it like 9 times now. also it didnt help that the guy who expressed interest in me and i was smitten with (until i was told not to follow that road) was there to watch. not cool. oh well. i got in and the play is......"The Little Mermaid" weeeeee! im also hoping to audition for little woman this winter. lead rolls get paid! so i dont have to pay to get in.

Also big announcemnt. there is a really good chance im gonna get to go on the europe trip this summer! AAAAACK! im so excited. were goin to france and italy. like lourdes, asissi, rome, all sorts of stuff. its so cool. i cant wait and am crossing my fingers that i can raise the money in time.

exciting, no?

wow. been long time. let me see what am i up to?.....
oh!
ive finally started to learn to drive!!!!! yep. my first time driveing was last saturday when my dad took me. i gots to drive the beamer! was quite fun. i suck at parking. haha.
i also was very happy to get the news that i get an extra week of summer. yahoo! the new school campus isnt finished yet so we got an extra week. sigh of relief. whew.
so, now that the other kids are in school i dont have to go to work so i have the entire week to myself. yay!
i stopped voice lessons for this month since i am going to audition for another play and if i get in i know i wont have time for voice anymore. ill start up again proble when we're done though. wish me luck. i hate auditions. love the plays hate the auditions. ugh.
i am nearly done with the count of monte cristo and will then be able to, after next payday, to get tricksters choice so i can add it to tricksters queen which i already have.
my dad finished by bookshelves entirely and my very close sister friends thought they were awsome when they came over last week. twas very fun.
anyway. i think thats it. oh! one more thing. im makeing a wall of quotes in my room. so fun!
yep thats it. school starts next week, at least its supposed to so we'll see if i can keep up blogging afterwards. i hope so.

Bratty Boys, and my screwy Brain

Well summer is coming to a close in a bout two weeks for me. just my luck that last week would be the busiest week for my summer job of running a daycare for my mom's workout class. yes i only work Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday but im telling you....this was hard. Tuesday i had, drum roll please, TEN!!!! little boys. TEN!! all between the ages of 5 and 7. ARG! luckily my 12 year old friend was there to help along with her 8 year old brother (he wasn't that much help though). most are pretty okay except for this little just 6 year old who must be a demon in blond curls. i had him again on Thursday and literally had to drag him off the floor back to where his mom was so she could put him in time out cause you know what? they dont really listen to me all that much. luckily with so many we played a group game of dodge ball. oh yes! throwing a ball at their little heads was most relaxing. Thursday luckily i only had 5 but i was by myself so i figured okay time to put that theater training to good use and used my stage voice the entire time. oh that surprised them. unfortunately while they werent being good boys and playing an organized game by themselves (which they did with the leadership of my one mature seven year old.) they were a little too rough and i had a total of three injuries. the little five year old who is evil but danged if he aint so cute got hit in the eye and started crying with saddest boo boo face i ever saw. hes a little monster but he seems to like me enough he gives me kiss when he leaves. (grr. that little two face!) well at least i raked in the dough that week. 70 bucks. that makes it a little better. haha.

now as ive mentioned ive been reading the twilight series and i totally love it. the first i loved the second was awesome (Jacob makes me laugh so freakin' hard i dont know why) and even the third i really liked. now i is on the fourth and oh my im nearly jumping out of my own skin. (no slight referance intended. ew.) i read 1/3 of the book in one day, i couldnt stop and in the beginning i was happy then a little more in i wasnt so much, now this morning i finished book two of BD and am happy again. im EXHAUSTING MYSELF!!! once i put the book down i couldnt stop thinking about it! last night i couldnt bring myself to do my writing because i couldnt focus i knew i was seriously in trouble when i could barely get my mind under control to say my prayers. i woke up in the middle of the night (as i do once in a while for no apparent reason whatsoever) and found my mind still on Edward and Jacob and Bella. i finally got back to sleep saying this was ridiculous and when i woke up the next morning, BAM!!!! again! its as if my mind picked up right where i left off. i was seriously getting a bit paranoid. i read some more this morning and then knew i needed some down time for fear id go mad and ruin the enjoyment of the book for myself. i literally retreated from my subconscious and put a Japanese song in my head. i got on the computer trying to think of anime (i did this the night before as well, it helped me get back to sleep to put the Gankutsuou End theme in my head) i immediately turned on my media player put on my everything playlist on shuffle and blared 'High School Never Ends' in my head. i escaped to the other side of myself, the anime geek side, to hide while my bookworm self was beat back into a controlled submission. i did some Internet stuff, watched some anime alternating with drivers ed classes and am now in control....i think.
sigh. sometimes i feel as if i have no control over my own mind. Is it just me or do i just have an extremely overactive imagination?

spelling, quotes, and my incoherence

BLAST!!!! why must my normally bad spelling become utterly atrocious as my at first minimal vocabulary becomes astoundingly larger. oh the oddities that writing bestows on ones own habits. perhaps in my efforts to not sound boring i have come to overlook the spelling of my words in order to get them out quicker so as not to bore myself. why that would have an affect on me at all I've no clue. I've always accepted the fact that my spelling is lacking but heaven forbid it to become unbearable to even me. just my luck that the child to be a writer in my family would inherit the spelling gene from my father who's own arrangement of letters leaves something to be desired. God bless spellcheck when i can get it.
GRR and Foil!!

*huff* well that being over with here is something of interest. ive come to be obsessed with quotes. yes, quotes. little bits of wisdom that have a taste of humor, preferably from people who were not considered entirely sane. those are the best ones. haha. well aside from my quote box on the side ive decided to put some of my favs write here. i just have to share some of them. i think this will be a new thing. ill post a list of quotes every once in a while. well here are a few.

"Love looks with the heart and not with the mind; And so winged cupid is painted blind" — William Shakespeare

"You speak an infinite deal of nothing." — William Shakespeare (The Merchant of Venice (Shakespeare, Signet Classic))

"A fool thinks himself to be wise, but a wise man knows himself to be a fool." — William Shakespeare

"Procrastination is the thief of time, collar him." — Charles Dickens (David Copperfield)

"There are books by which the backs and covers are by far the best parts." — Charles Dickens

"Strength is incomprehensible by weakness, and, therefore, the more terrible." — Nathaniel Hawthorne (The House of the Seven Gables (Norton Critical Edition))

"We men of study, whose heads are in our books, have need to be straitly looked after! We dream in our waking moments, and walk in our sleep." — Nathaniel Hawthorne (The Scarlet Letter)

"Do anything, save to lie down and die!" — Nathaniel Hawthorne (The Scarlet Letter)

"No man, for any considerable period, can wear one face to himself and another to the multitude, without finally getting bewildered as to which may be the true." — Nathaniel Hawthorne

Ends of Upside down Tears

ive made a discovery. found the answer pertaining to my complex about endings. whether they be in movies or books. anime or manga. you can often hear people say 'oh that ending was really good' 'i like how that ended'. nope not me. i have never once been able to bring myself to say these words. why? well because i loath endings. why? i have no clue. i can hardly ever bring myself to "like" an ending to a book or something. i have a tendency to push it out of my memory entirely. especially if the ending is sad. for example. i did not enjoy (to my friends' shock and horrification) 'a walk to remember' yes it was sweet but...meh. have no clue. another ex. Titanic. sure the beginning is kinda fun and heck dicaprio always finds a way to make me laugh. i have never seen the end to this movie. and i kinda dont mind if i ever do. just thinking about the last few scenes i saw makes that sick wretched feeling surface again. could this be simply suppressed tears? i dont cry at movies or such. never really have. is this bad? is this why i hate endings especially sad ones? or is it because i prefer to be in my happy medium of a place.
today i watched something utterly miserable making sad. did i cry? no. i felt like i should but did i? no. and now i go to blocking out the entire thing because if i dwell on it that wretched feeling comes back. happily gnawing at my insides refusing to even consider that i might accept the ending given to me..........and now i realize that i am rambling. well thats all i have to say. have fun people who like endings. i forever will watch from the shadows ready to suppress all unpleasantries that come my way.
and yet, i think to myself, i enjoy emotional scenes in the middle of stories. heck i love to write about them. maybe its just the endings that i loath entirely.....

Meet the demands or demand to meet

well first off our summer reading book this year happens to be the count of monte cristo. ive always wanted to read this book...or see the movie if that proved to be to bothersome. well ive decided to acually read it since i failed to read the last three assigned books in my school career. so kill me if i didnt want to read Moby Dick, uncle toms cabin, and Farenheit 451...okay so i could have read the last one and wish i had but i was being a smart ass. i just cannot be forced to read something. it is the one thing that reminds me that i am actually stubborn. who knew? if you tell me to do it im less likely to want to. sigh. i hate that im like this but fail to fix this fault my programing. sigh. well once again i say that ive chosen to read it.....but im watching the anime first. mwahahahahahahaha. yes there is an anime of the count of monte cristo, BUT ENOUGH ABOUT THAT! i try not to mention anime and manga on this blog.
random comment: i like painting my nails blue.
im getting better at my daycare job. its become easier since im starting to know the kids better. i had a new one last thurseday. a three year old little girl who happened to be at that stage where 'why?' seems to be the best word in the world. luckily she was very cute and loved to jump into my arms while we watched toy story 2. (i love that movie!) she was the most social three year old id ever met. she announced to me out of the blue that she wanted to go say hi to the one of the instructors at the desk and told him all about how she was three but would be four tomorrow then five. how cute!!
oh summer! how i miss my friends dearly!!
i am incredibly happy about my writing right now. last week i just could not focus worth beans. i had finally got myself to stop writing so as to go back and revize though i loath it entirely. finally in church on sunday i just prayed really hard for the perseverance to get this book done quickly and be able to focus my mind on things. and here i am this week revizing like a maniac. THANK YOU LORD!!!!!!
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bookshelves and other news

hello all. sorry ive been gone for a monstrous amount of time. a whole week practically. how dreadful!! well we had the pleasure of tenting our house so we had to stay in a really crappy hotel for two days. oh and did i mention this particular hotel that had supposedly cleaned up its act from the drug busting love motel it was before actually is the top suspect in trying to fraud our credit card account. ugh. well for those few three days i was forced to stay extra entire days at the karate studio but that was slightly appeased by the purchase of a new purse and being payed twenty bucks for watching camp kids overtime.

the next week our family took off so everyone was home except for my brother who still had classes and will never stop working. so, my dad used this time to finish my bookshelves that ive been wanting forever. SO HAPPY!!! i helped stain them. i was dizzy from the fumes afterwards but it was rewarding.....and quite messy. That thurseday we had our 'vacation trip'. we just took the hours drive up to aneheim and went to this really awsome mall. (i gots books from a borders and made the discovery of how much i love american eagle outfitters) afterwards we had lunch at the house of blues in downtown disney which was alote of fun. our families now been to practically every house of blues except for the one in texas. (texas here we come!) so the week was actually perty fun. i love shopping.

heres a pic of my new bookshelves. yes i know they aint covered in books but hey just wait a few weeks. the four small compartments at the bottom are to be drawers for my clothes but my dad has to figure out how to make them first. also youll see my shelves inhabited by multiple creatures. three teddy bears and 20 pufkins. me and my bro used to collect pufkins like the rest of the world did beeny babies. they is very cute bu now you cant find them hardly anywhere except perhaps online. oh and did i mention we dont have just nineteen but i figured it would be overwhelming to the eyes if i included the other 22 lined up on the top in the shot.

and to the kingdom hearts fans who read my blog...yes, that is a keyblade on my top shelf. haha

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Rant for no apparent reason

hmmm. havent posted in a while it seems. whats going on with me? hum. oh! we is having our house tented. we have to stay in a hotel for two days and i have to spend and entire extra day at my moms work and we have to bring one of our dogs cuz we have no where to put the mutleys. tis a bit of an annoyance.
what else?......im almost don with the gemma doyle series. the first book i read in a day and a morning, the second i paced myself and was thouroghly exhausted in the process and the third went utterly slow till about half way through when i finally got into it. the reason for this escapes me. was i just to exhausted? maybe it was because the characters were getting on my nerves a bit. (seriously i was getting really pissed at gemma). but its all good now....mostly.
ummm.....im learning intervals in voice lessons which is fun, im having a little trouble getting through some pages in my writing but im really trying to buckle down so i can move on to the exciting stuff thats been playing in my head forever. oh! and i had a really interesting/exilerating but yummy coffee drink the other day. I ususally get a mocha frappuccino at starbucks but caffeines not doing what it used to for me so like a drug addict i realize i just need more of it. well i found my match. me and my mom went to coffee bean and we found an equivalent to our mocha frap with the word extreme in the title. its basically the same except for one thing......its full of ground expresso beans. WOW!!! was that good!!! haha. just what i need right?
well i think thats it for now. im trying to be more positive in my posts. hope its working.

Being up late can be dangerous

well as some of you might know i do my writing at night. and this has a tendency to carry me to my normal bedtime of midnight, 12:30 at the latest. well my parents are not night people at all. believe me its the saddest thing theyre in bed by 9 or 10 at the latest every night. oy. tis early. (for me). well my dad works with the city (i aint gonna say which one) and so hes on call alote. also he has a tendency to hate it when his kids are up "late" because hes like 'what in the heck could you be doing so late?'. oh i dont know dad. reading?writing? both things that make me uterly happy? well last night it was around midnight and i knew i had to get to bed soon but i was in a good writing groove and wasnt going to miss the oportunity and decided to keep going for a while. low and behold i hear my dad's phone going off. Oh Shiznit. hes gonna know im up. dang it all! so i reluctantly put down my pencil and turn off my light even though i know hes already seen it and knows im up. this causes me to fall out of my writing groove and unfortunately give in to bedtime.
the funny thing is the next morning i find myself on the phone with him (he thought i was my mom at first. haha. funny) and hes like 'so i got a call at two in the morning last night and you were up what were you doing?' um hello it was 12 not 2. i had my glasses on did you? haha. ah papà, ¿que està mal?

Slow computers and Books should be read in private

Ah Summer. truly a wonderful thing....except that summer, being the time when you have an unlimited amount of time to spent on the computer, is also quite hot causing your beloved computer to run irritatingly slow and create a great amount of noise. ugh. so hot.
oh yes. books, especially when being read by me, should not be read in public unless you want to attract some strange looks from people who are weirded out because you look like your about to have an anurism becuase you are simply stifling hysteria at the book you so happened to be reading so as not to cause a scene. that of course doesnt work. i cannot honestly stop myself from making random espressions at what im reading whether it be a goony smile or complet shock or of course biting my lip and turning completely red stifling laughter or squeels. siiiiiiiiigh.